I worked out what I want from how I behave at my job
- Looking for
- somebody who can tell me whether that is a real reason or a story I am telling
- Experience
- None, unless twenty years of a certain sort of job counts.
- Around
- the east side, Los Angeles
I am at my best when somebody senior tells me exactly what is required, holds me to it, and says plainly when it was not good enough. I have known that about my working life for twenty years and treated it as an ordinary preference. Then last winter I read a post on this board that described the same arrangement outside work, and something rearranged itself in a way I have not been able to put back.
Forty eight, the east side, no experience of any of this beyond a year of reading and thinking.
What I cannot work out is whether that is a genuine reason to be here or whether I have found a tidy explanation for something I would rather not look at directly. I would like to talk to somebody who has watched other people arrive by this route and can tell me which it usually is.
If it is real, what I want is a continuing arrangement with clear standards, regular reporting, and somebody who actually checks. That is the whole picture and there is nothing in it I would be embarrassed to describe.
Not looking for anything to start immediately. Not looking to be treated as fragile because I am new and older than most new people. And not looking for somebody who wants to be called anything before we have met.