Fourth account on the same app, and I can describe the cycle exactly
- Looking for
- a reason to still be here in three months
- Experience
- Four years on and off, two dynamics, neither past six months.
- Around
- the south side, Glasgow
Fourth profile, same app. The cycle runs about eleven weeks and it is the same every time. A fortnight of hope, a month of decent conversations that go nowhere, three weeks of checking it constantly and hating myself for it, then a bad evening and I delete the account in a temper. Six weeks later I am back.
What goes with the account is the part I underestimated for years. It is not the profile. It is every conversation I had, including the two that were slowly becoming something, and there is no way to tell those people what happened. They see a name go grey and draw a conclusion.
Thirty, the south side, submissive, four years of this and nothing longer than six months to show for it. The kink part has never been the difficulty. The app part has.
So the change this time is behavioural. Twice a day, no more. A quiet week is not a message. And if I go, I say so first, which costs me nothing and would have saved two decent people some confusion.
What I want is somebody consistent over months rather than impressive in week one. Small daily rules. Somebody who follows up on a thing I said last Thursday. Not looking for intensity. Not looking to prove I am serious by being available at short notice.