I do not want to be part of anything. I want one person
- Looking for
- a private arrangement with somebody who has no interest in a social life around it
- Experience
- Six years, two dynamics, both of them entirely two person affairs.
- Around
- Kreuzberg, Berlin
Everybody I talk to here eventually suggests I should meet more people who do this, get to know a wider circle, become part of something. I understand why it is offered and it is the opposite of what I want. I want one arrangement, one person, and no audience for any of it, ever.
Thirty seven, Kreuzberg, submissive, six years in, two arrangements and neither of them known to a single other person.
This makes me unusual in a city where a great deal of this is social, and it means I filter out a large number of otherwise excellent people whose lives around this are the part they value most. That is a real cost and I have decided to pay it.
What I want is a structured ongoing arrangement conducted entirely between two people. Standing expectations, a weekly evening, tasks and contact in the days between.
Not looking for anybody who wants to introduce me to anyone. Not looking to attend anything, at all, ever, and I would rather say that now than be politely worked on about it for six months. And not looking for a person who reads privacy as shame, because I am entirely comfortable with myself and simply do not want a crowd.